Integritus Prime

As I look back over the last few weeks, affirmations abound and confirmations resound everywhere: I know I am on my path. Almost 8 years ago, I chose an unconventional option: to put my whole self out there as an entrepreneur. I reflected all of who I am through my work, offering a range spanning spiritual to analytical services, all under one umbrella: Alchemus Prime.

Fast forward to last month, when I was sought out through my website and LinkedIn for exactly this: my broad integration across ways of knowing, and my wide range of services by multiple and diverse people. I was seen for who I am, and it felt so good. I felt I had reached an important milestone. Not only do my coaching clients find me (I don’t advertise for transformative coaching – people know when they are ready and find me vibrationally), now my consulting and other work is also showing up in a similar way.

How did I get here? There have been three crucial steps:

1. Facing Fear: Initially, I was afraid to be my own authority. Through hardships and painful learning, I realized it was the best path, so I had to face and overcome the fear of being wrong, being alone, and failing. I had to overcome my patriarchal conditioning, and learn to feel safe without a protector. I learned that you can fail over and over, and learn more and more, and that patriarchy was never my ally. I acknowledge patriarchy and fear as tremendous teachers on my path: I continue to learn so much.
2. Healing Trauma: I realized there was a lot of trauma in me: in my physical and emotional body, and it’s taken years to heal, with help from a variety of practitioners. I am still working on myself – this work never stops. Over time, though, you become stronger, and trauma patterns begin to fade, and control you less. Your true self emerges, and you begin to shine from within. The light you emanate is from the lighthouse of purpose.
3. Surrendering Control: The lesson I kept learning was to let go of what the mind wanted me to do. Yes, our left and right brains are cool, and I work hard to keep them in balance too, but there is a much greater power – the harmony of heart and gut. I learned to surrender to my intuition and let my heart lead me. Eventually, with meditation and other techniques, I’m learning to align mind with heart and gut. That’s when the magic happens.

Now, I know I am a vessel for transformation, and I know I am guided at every step. Doubts are fading away for good. I know because the ways in which opportunities appear before me cannot be arranged by the human mind. Opportunities are exquisitely timed in the most unexpected ways, and sometimes reveal more baggage I need to release in order to receive, accept, and invite them in. To bring them to fruition, I need to open my heart fully and trust in the process. Beginning with self-love, and culminating in my undying love for the planet and all life, I learn that life is all about love.

To be in tune with one’s divine purpose is a sacred gift, and I feel privileged to be in this flow we call life. My gratitude goes to all who support me at this soul level – I see you, and I am grateful to be seen by you.

Share with me – how is your calling finding you?