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I’ve been on a journey of awakening my true self for several years.* When I look back though, I realize I’ve always been on this journey. As a student, I studied literature and one of Shakespeare’s famous quotes, ‘nothing is good or bad, thinking makes it so’ came up. I wondered what it meant at that time. Slowly, I understood that it was all about how we react to a situation and the societal rules that govern such an event at the time. This was lesson number one in my process of awakening: We are not born with biases or prejudices; we learn them as we grow.

For example, I started my primary education in a school with only one ethnic group. All the students, including me, did not interact with any other ethnic groups. I was afraid of the other ethnic groups, as I did not know anything about their language, culture or practices. It was not until high school that I started interacting with many different ethnic groups and learned about their values and concerns. This helped me remove the biases and fear I had developed about them from other people’s opinions and experiences. Later, in medical school, I had a best friend of Samoan decent (Fulisia) and it was a wonderful experience.

I love reading books, and one series that caught my attention was ‘Conversations with God’ by Neale Donald Walsch. In this book, he says that to appreciate one state, we need to see the opposite state as well, such as light and dark, or good and bad. He also reiterates that good and bad is defined by us according to our beliefs, experiences and reactions. Lesson number two: Do not be judgmental; be open to other people’s opinions and views, as our views and opinions are limited to our learning and experiences.

This is a hard ask, I realized when practicing as a new doctor. I wanted my patients to listen to me and do what I told them because I was the qualified doctor. Soon, I realized that I cannot make them to do what I think or know is right for them. They have a right to decide about their own health and wellness and to question me. I learnt very quickly not to be judgmental but empathize with people who came for help, which helped them come around to my expert point of view eventually, if not right away.

A few years ago, I attended the ‘Art of Living’ happiness course, where I learnt to meditate with a focus on how to live in the present moment, with like-minded people. The important way to focus on the present is through our breath, which help us to live in the moment. When we are in the present, it helps us appreciate life as it is today and not live a life of regret for what happened in the past or live in fear of the future, which hasn’t arrived. The past is gone and cannot be changed, so worrying or being sad about hurtful events in the past is fruitless. The future is yet to come, so being afraid robs us of the present, which we can live to the fullest and enjoy. We can choose to be happy and provide service to humanity without fear or judgment. Lesson number three: Live in the present and choose to be happy now instead of looking for happiness in the future.

The most important course for me was called Romantic™: Finding True Love, by Alchemus Prime. During this online course, I learnt to love and accept myself for who I was. The self-love course was based on the book “The Path to Romantic Success – What You Won’t Learn in School or at Home About Finding True Love,” by my daughter, Marilyn Cornelius. I now realize that I had very low self-esteem, which I labeled as humility. This course made me realize that I had self-doubt, self-loathing and was practicing self-sabotage, all under the banner of humility. This was due to early childhood abuse, which I had not dealt with. The course included meditations, affirmations, reflection questions and additional exercises, which helped me overcome the blockage. Knowing what true love is becomes possible when we can love ourselves unconditionally first. There’s a saying is that if you don’t love yourself, how can you expect other people to love you, and I have found this to be true. Lesson number four: Love yourself first before expecting someone else to love you.

My vision is to help awaken humans to love themselves and all sentient beings in an effort to save the world and Mother Earth, which is in peril from lifestyle diseases and climate change – all mainly caused by human behavior. This is the theme of Neale Donald Walsch’s latest book, entitled ‘Awaken the Species’. I fully agree with this. I attended an online master class on this subject and I’m hoping to read this book in the near future. The social unrest, hate speeches, discrimination, and fighting that we see around us is due to lack of love, especially self-love. It is also related to past trauma, which is another topic that needs to be dealt with. Marilyn Cornelius, through Alchemus Prime has published a collection of testimonies in a book entitled From Abuse to Empowerment – Recognizing and Releasing Behavior Patterns that come from Trauma – I recommend this book and the forthcoming course if you want to better understand and release trauma. Lesson number five: Awaken to your true self by releasing trauma, and a live a life of authenticity.

If you want to kick start your awakening or take it to the next level as we move into the new year, contact Alchemus Prime for an initial free call and start your journey to self-love and awakening.

*This blog is written by the ever-energetic Margaret Cornelius, MD.

Margaret Cornelius guest blogs about her journey to a more awakened life.